Old friend

It's funny how, when we're reminded by our past, we usually enjoy some fond memories. No matter how many people you have met over the course of your life and will still meet, it's the people when you were young that will play a significant part in your life no matter how long it has been.

When I was young, I used to think that friends were ranked according to certain criteria. Like how understanding they are, or reliable when you got problems. I have met people like those and they're really great friends. But you had when you were young are some of the fondest friends that I have come to appreciate.

Like today, for example. I used friendster to lookup an old friend. We had some good times, and the feelings I had when I was a kid all came back. I remember how we were, our place in each other. There aren't any walls during that time, not that we were even aware of them, and that kind of gives it an innocent feel. There was even the hint of childhood crush that I hid. Those were fun and innocent times.

As I read more about her entry, I notice myself thinking of "What could have been." What if we continued to be friends? Or maybe even a step farther, "What if we became more than friends?" During those times, I could certainly have taken steps to make it happen.

It occurred to me how great her life must be these days. She has lots of friends and she seems successful in her career. And knowing what I know about her kindness and caring for the people around her, she is the perfect girl any guy can dream of.

It's so fun to ask these questions, and not dwell on them. They are just day dreams after all. But if I were given a choice to go back and choose, would I really _want_ it different than what it is now? Hmmm, now _that_ is an interesting question.

Thank God I have a lifetime to enjoy thinking about it.